Goodbye 2019

As I say goodbye to you, I wish you well and thank you for the good times and the bad times. You let me to the highest mountains and even to the deepest oceans. You make me had the first international book conversations with my lovely people; you also took me to the best university, which I never had the right to. It was a fantastic journey throughout.

But you also nearly killed me. But I don’t blame you for that. Instead, I am thankful as you have taught me how to appreciate life more than any other things in the world. You took 80% of my precious blood and let me suffered in pain. You even allowed me to think that it’s over, yet you are always by my side, for which I am grateful.
I will never see you again, but I have no regrets. I will remember you for a few days and weeks, and you will be gone with the wind. Please don’t blame me, but I have to tell you the truth.
I know it will be hard to get over you for a few days, I might mistakenly write your name again and again, but don’t be excited about it because it will be just a mistake, and it will be rectified.

Thank you for being a part of my life, even though it was a short one. I think it’s time you take rest and make history and passed the torch to somebody who might do better or worse than you. It doesn’t mean I don’t trust you anymore; it just means our story is over, and we have to get over each other. I know it’s hard, I have been in your shoes too, I know how it feels like to be left alone, I know, and I know. But I can’t stay this time, nothing in this world can stop us from parting. Let’s accept the fact and go our ways. Soon you will forget me, and I will do the same, but there will be times when we will both miss each other so much, but it will be just a dream. I know I’ll cry one day thinking of you, or while reflecting our beautiful days, I am not prepared yet, though I know it will surely come to pass.
Once again, thank you, and I will surely miss you.

Goodbye, my love, 2019. 🤣🤣🤣

Before the sun rises
mom is already cooking rice
And getting ready with her tools.
Choosing the best wools,
Smoothening the weaving comb.
She is the best weaver on earth.

Daddy sits near the fireplace
sipping a cup of black tea.
A pencil over his ear
Sharpening his chisel
Singing a folk song
He is the best carpenter on earth.

He woke up rubbing his eyes
Holding a smartphone
Checking the notifications.
Fighting an online war
And wasted his day.
He is the best gamer in the family.



My life is so simple
I fall in love every day
and she happens to be the one
who stole my heart.
She is like a butterfly
so beautiful and fragile.
She belongs to the flowers
and they belong to her.
Shakespeare would have
already written sonnets on her,
If he is alive today.
flowers will decay
and the forest will be frozen,
the birds will stop their songs
and the valley will be silent
but she will always light my heart.
She is the only butterfly,
who can survive the storm
with her beautiful smile.




You stole my Kohinoor
Killed thousands of my leaders
Tortured millions of my people
And still, you ignore my struggles
After what you have gained from us.

But, London! London!
You are still the apple of my eyes
I have read Great Expectations
And I know what will happen when
You accept me as your friend.

But, London! London!
Allow me to be a beggar in your bosom
And let my people think I am rich
Because, London, you are one city
Where everyone wants to dwell.

Image courtesy: London City (Facebook page)


A half a decade ago, I jumped into a relationship which I knew clearly that it won’t work out well. But, I keep pressuring myself thinking that it might work out someday. For almost six years I was after a lady whom I love to the moon and back. As I grew mature the pressure gets higher and the attachment gets stronger. I wanted to walk out from the relationship as it was not healthy for me and for her too. Six years of off and on types of relationship, in fact, I was never her boyfriend. It was a one-sided love.
One day, she called up and that changed everything. We decided to stay away from each other, and I took it seriously.

I was so proud that I’d moved on but a few months later she occupied my mind all over again. Every day she keeps coming into my mind even though I knew so well that she’d moved on without me.

Heartbreak is real, it happens to everyone in a different form, and it is very important to know how to handle it. It’s a very sensitive and time-consuming process. It took me almost one year to completely heal.

I was more like into depression. I thought of calling her on the phone and decided to start all over again. But, my heart never agreed, though I love her. I think true love is letting them be who they want to be and not what we want them to be.

I called up my best friends and mentors for help, most of them consider it as a piece of cake. They show less interest in it. But there are some few people who were with me during my transitional period and I am forever grateful to them. Without them, I might not be able to heal myself and to love myself.

Through the heartbreak and the wrong relationship, I have learned to love myself and discover God’s amazing love. I started to read more books and listen to inspirational messages. I started to seek God more often in order to find peace and love. I am so proud of myself that I have received a double portion of blessings. I discovered His amazing love and finally wrote a book which was my childhood dream.

Tips to move on without hating the person.

1- NEVER BLAME YOURSELF: Remember they left you because they don’t need you anymore. Just take it as an opportunity that you deserve better and they deserve better too.
2- FORGIVE THEM: You will never find peace if you keep hating the person. You might be angry about what they have done to you, and it’s absolutely okay to be angry but don’t let that anger turns into hate.
3- NEVER FORGET: It doesn’t mean we keep remembering them always and keep hurting ourselves. We must not forget that they left us. Try to find a strong point of why you should never go back, it may be their character, their manners or behaviors which you don’t like, take their weakness as your strength to move on.
4- NEVER GOSSIP: Don’t become cheap human by gossiping about your ex. It won’t help you to move on. You will be more hurt when you gossip about the person.
5- FIND A HOBBY OR GET A JOB: This will help you forget your past. I started writing and eventually, it turns out to be a book (True Love Keeps Moving). My mind was more into writing which keeps me moving.
6- BE SENSITIVE AND VULNERABLE: If you want to heal, you have to share your pain and accept the fact of what had happened. Find someone whom you can share comfortably.
7- DON’T BE AFRAID TO LOVE AGAIN: It’s we humans that ruin the relationship and not love. Love is amazing.
8- INVOLVE GOD IN THE PROCESS: You might move on without God but your heart will never be completely healed without Him. You will discover His amazing love and grace during the transition and in the process. God still heals people.

No more tears. Only laughter and happiness.

“They went out from us, but they did not really belong to us. For if they had belonged to us, they would have remained with us; but their going showed that none of them belonged to us.” – 1 John 2:19

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